The Introverted Evangelist

   Dear God, I'm not mad at You. I'm just sad. Twelve years doesn't seem like enough, but I understand it's Your turn to hold him. I'll miss him. I'll miss all the fun times we had with him. I'll miss his big brown eyes and fluffy face. I know he loves us, and we sure love him. I know there's a place for him up there, and he'll get lots of ear scratchies.    I know he'll be able to run free up there. His old frail body will be new. He'll be with the other souls I miss. But most importantly, he wont be hurting anymore. I just need to know, that he knows how much I'm going to miss him. I need him to really understand how much I love him. Without him there is a hole in my heart. He's irreplaceable and unforgettable.    I remember when he'd chase us around the pool for hours on end. I remember snuggling up to him in my tent. I remember that every year I would buy him a little sweater for Christmas. He'd tear open the wrapping pa...

   Home is where you are safe . Home is cozy and warm and gentle . Home is where you are free to be yourself. Where you are never rejected or denied companionship . Jesus is Home.    Whenever I look to Jesus, and really focus in on His glory, I am reminded just how much He loves me. Jesus never abandons me or is hostile . Jesus is kind and loving . He loves us all more than we could ever imagine. Some of us cannot grasp the fact that we are loved , because some of us have never truly received love from other people. But, let me assure you: God doesn't love the way people love. God is Love. We love because He first loved us.     1 John 4:19 says, "We love each other because he loved us first." You see, no matter how bad you think  you are, God still loves you beyond comprehension. Once you understand that He will never stop loving us, you're whole perspective will change. You'll start to realize who you are. You are a child of God. We were cre...

   God is able. There is absolutely nothing He can't do. He is almighty and powerful . He is full of wonder and glory . I am in awe of You, Lord.    When every hope seems to be lost, God steps in and saves. He never leaves us. It says in Hebrews 13:5, "For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'" We are never forgotten or left behind by God. Even when everyone else has turned away form you, Jesus stays right next to you. He is holding your hand, keeping you safe . He sustains us all the way.    Once, I felt so abandoned . I felt like everybody I love had left me. I felt trapped and alone . But, it was during these interminably long two and a half weeks that I felt the presence of God. Every night I'd sit on that uncomfortable bed and read His Word. His Word is what gave me hope for the rough days to come. Having people watch my every move gave me an advantage to be an example. Maybe I could show others how Jesus comforted ...

   But first, a verse I emailed to myself from my bible app at 2AM this morning. Yes, I really did send this verse to myself at two in the morning. I'm not exactly sure how, but I did.    "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?" ( Psalms 42:2 )    I actually sent myself two verses, the other being Hebrews 12:1 , "Therefore we also, since we are surround by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us," But that's beside the point.    Now for the haiku I had promised. It may be a little silly, but I really feel like this haiku wasn't just intended for me. I think the Lord wanted me to share this with all of you. So here it is: I have been made new, What satan says is not true, Jesus, I love You!    Short, but meaningful and so very true! Everything the enemy ...

   Lord, You are my everything. You are my hope and strength . You are my morning and my night. You are the Healer of my hurt. You are the Savior of my life. You have made me new . You have given me joy and purpose .    I am constantly in awe of you, God. You're beautiful . You're more than I can even imagine. You are the Creator of the universe. You are the wellspring of life and peace . There is nothing you cannot do. Your power is made perfect in our weaknesses. I have plenty of weakness, but I am glad, because through them others will see You, Lord.    "And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will boast my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." ( 2 Corinthians 12:9 )    I pray Your power rest upon me, God. I want others to see what You do. Come in me. I want to be known for knowing and loving You. You are my Teacher , so teach me to ...

   Fear is just a lie . Every worry present in my wandering mind is just a clever little tactic. The enemy is trying to destroy me. Every time I doubt God's glorious abilities, he is thrilled and laughs at me. I don't want the enemy to feel like he has any authority over me. Because he doesn't. No, he has no power  over me whatsoever. No matter how many times he tries to convince me otherwise. It is not true. The enemy was defeated hundreds and hundreds of years ago when my savior died on the cross. Nice try, but not today!    I'm so sick of him mocking me and dictating my days. This is my life the Lord gave to me. This life is a gift . I refuse to live in misery because of him. I refuse to give in to the temptations. I refuse to be bullied by the enemy. I am not a victim! I am victorious!     "Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." ( Galations 5:1 )    I...

   I'm constantly griping about how I never get to be with my friends. It's an awful habit. Why be so negative when there's so, so much for which to be thankful? I often forget how blessed I am when I'm so busy groaning about how terrible my life is. But, in the midst of my bellyaching, today, the Lord reminded me that I have the perfect companion. Jesus.    Whenever I feel lonely and unwanted, He reminds me of how Jesus died for me. Jesus died so that He could have a personal relationship with each and every single one of us. Don't forget that. Jesus is our best Friend, our Teacher, Healer, Savior, and Lord. He is always with us.    No matter how many people have left you, Jesus will never leave. He is constantly by our side. It is written right in Hebrews 13:5 , "For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'"    Jesus is all we need. He is more than enough. Whatever it is we may be going through, He is sufficient. Our God...

   Who am I? What makes me different from everybody else? How can I make a difference in this fallen world? How can I make Jesus known? What is my purpose ? Why am I here?    I have a job. I have a purpose . I am the only one that can carry out God's plan for me. He chose me specifically to do something huge . I will not let the enemy discourage me, and lead me into darkness . I will not hide my face, nor will I be ashamed of who I am in Christ Jesus. I have been made new and the old is long gone.    There was once a time in my life, when I was so dismal and gloomy . I only wore grey clothes, and my favorite kind of days were those of the dreary sort. I detest to think of how much of a negative impact I may have had on others. I really never wish to return to my previous ways.    Instead, I can rejoice in knowing I am new again! I am alive and well!   I have been assigned a great destiny . God has given me a job. I'm to tell othe...