Saturday, June 29, 2013

Wandering and Wondering

   I've seen so many people in this world who are lost, and it breaks God's heart. He doesn't want us to live a life of uncertainty and faithlessness. He wants us to know that He is our home, and in Him we are safe.
   People often have too much curiosity and wander into things that are not healthy for the well-being of their souls. It's a fallen world. Don't sell your soul. If, however, you've already done some things wrong, it's not the end. God is full of mercy. He is quick to forgive us of our sins. 
   "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness." (1 John 1:9)
   Then there are those who are angry with God. Whether it be a laid off job, or the death of a beloved family member. They seem to ask, "Why did you do this, God?" and, "If God is so  loving, then why did He let my brother die?" We do not know these answers, nor do we know why these tragedies happen. But, I do know that God knows better than we do, and He is full of grace and love.
   "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28)
   It may not have been what we would have done, but we need to remember that God has everything figured out. He has a big, big plan. After all, He did create this vast universe in which we reside. Don't you think He's got a divine plan in mind?
   "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And My thoughts than your thoughts." (Isaiah 55:9)
   Even though this world boggles our human minds, there is one thing that is certain. God's love for us will never run out. His flowing river of compassion will never be dry. He satisfies our souls, and He provides for our every need.
   "O God, You are my God; Early I will seek You; My soul thirsts for You' My flesh longs for You In a dry and thirsty land Where there is no water." (Psalms 63:1)
   Don't let your life be controlled by this changing world. Let your soul find rest and assurance in the One that never changes. He was the same yesterday, He is the same today, and He will be the same forever: loving, just, faithful, comforting, and merciful.

   "For God is not the author of confusion but of peace, as in all the churches of the saints." (1 Corinthians 14:33)
   Let your soul be enveloped in the peace that is of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is for us, and not against us. Take a moment to feel His Presence. He loves us more than you cold ever imagine.
   Thank You for Your grace, God. My greatest thanks is simply not enough. For all my days I will love You and serve You. I live for You alone, my Lord.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

We Are Not of This World

   What has this world come to? Where have our morals gone? What ever happened to integrity? What about, "In God We Trust"? Today our society has become more and more distant from the Lord. We're in need of a change, and I do not mean the "change" we received on January 20, 2009. We need a change of heart, spirit, and mind. We need to be putting God first.
   We live in a very fallen world, and it is our duty to bring light into the darkness. We are on a mission for God. We have an important purpose. We have massive things to do here.
   "Now then, we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God were pleading through us: we implore you on Christ's behalf, be reconciled to God." (2 Corinthians 5:20)
   Have we forgotten who made us? Have we disregarded our Creator's glorious ways? Do we find what He has made worthless? Why do we disrespect His creations? The unruly violence and inhumane ways need to come to an end.
   "And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground, and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living being." (Genesis 2:7)
   You see, God created life. Life is far from worthless. Life is precious. Life should be cherished and honored. Life is a gift, not a "choice". We do not have the right to end a life. It is up to God to decide when a life begins, and when it shall end. It is also His choice as to how it came into the world. We, as humans, have over-stepped our boundaries. We're trying to completely shut God out of our lives, and it's not alright.
   "Then Jesus spoke to them, again, saying, 'I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life." (John 8:12)
   So, let's be an example of His mercy. Let us go into this word that is so filled with hate and darkness, and let's bring the light of life in Jesus Christ. We are strangers in this place, we have a longing for our Home. In the meantime we will tell of His wonders.

   "And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God." (Romans 12:2)

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Sunday, June 23, 2013

Afraid of Freedom

   It's come down to being absolutely broken. I'm broken and I'm lost. I can't continue living in this constant, vicious cycle. First is fear, then a small breakthrough, then guilt, then more fear. It's an awful way of living, and I can tell it's breaking God's heart.
   As much as I want to be free, God wants me to be free even more. He loves me more than I could even imagine. I know He knows what I want. He understands why I'm afraid to live freely. He is my comfort, so to Him I shall bring my worries.
   God, You are what I need. You are all I need. Only You can free me from this bondage. Today, I want so dearly to be free. I want to be known for being ever so dependent on You, Lord. Please come in to my life and take over. I want every little decision I make to be whole-heartedly made through You. I want to live solely on Your promises and grace.
   You are my salvation. You are the rock on which I stand. You are my hope. You are the one that can save me. I'm in a desperate place, God. Come and rescue me, please.
   I know You want it for me. I know it's what I need, but I can't help but be intimidated by the freedom. I've always been trapped in this illness. I don't know what being "free" will be like. It strikes me with fear. I coward in all my worry, and I need You.
   I want You, God, to help me abandon my fears. I want to abandon my fears and live a life for You. You are my heart's desire. I adore You, my Savior.
   Falling into my old habits is so easy and quite tempting. I've had small relapses here and there many, many times. I'm sick of it! Satan, you're in hell, and you can't control me. I can laugh in your face, because I know you're just jealous of what I have in Christ. You're furious because I love Jesus so much. I know you want me to be singing praises to you, but it will never ever happen! Only my God in heaven is worthy to be praised! You are nothing but a liar and a thief!
   Through my Savior I can defeat the enemy's lies. With God I am victorious! The devil is trying to get us discouraged. He wants us to think we've lost, but it's not true! We have a great, great reward waiting for us in heaven. When we're finished here and entering the gates of heaven, all these current hardships will seem unimportant. We just need to keep our eyes on Jesus.
   I've been dreaming about the day I meet Jesus, face to face, ever since I can remember. I've flipped through old journals. Inside them I find the drawings of a four-year-old girl who loves Jesus with her entire heart. I've always been homesick.
   Jesus has always been my true Love. He knows all my secrets and all my fears. Deep inside me I know that I can trust Him with everything, yet I continue to live in fear. I'm afraid of being free, because I don't feel ready to give up controlling things. I need to give God control. I know He's promised me these things, and I really have no valid reason to be scared.
   He has spoken to me many times. He's given me more confirmation than I could possibly need, but I keep relapsing. I don't understand why I'm like this. I'm beyond terrified of being reckless. God, please help me be reckless. Help me see that you're for me and not against me. I'm Yours and You're mine. I love You, Jesus.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Thursday, June 20, 2013

His Faithful Love

   The hope for all mankind is Jesus Christ. He is our Savior. He takes aways all shame. He loves us with an everlasting love. He is Love.
   In His presence all things are made new and beautiful. His mercy is new for us every day minute! He is never irritated with us. "The Lord is gracious and full of compassion, Slow to anger and great in mercy." (Psalms 145:8)
   We will never run out of "second chances". Every time we come to Him in repentance, He is quick to forgive. "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."" (1 John 1:9)
   Isn't it wonderful to know that we serve a merciful God. He is the Prince of Peace, the King of kings, and He is on our team. And when He is on our team, nothing could ever stand against us.

   All of eternity we will spend in His glorious Presence. Be excited! His love is vast like an ocean, and it never fails or fades. He will never turn away from us. What a faithful God!

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

His Creation, Our Mission

   The earth is filled with His wondrous creation. When the sun sets, the night sky is radiant with beauty. God's glory is all around us.
   Stop. Close your eyes and listen for Him. He speaks. He will speak to those who listen for Him. His gentle whisper is sweeter than a grand symphony. There is no one like our God. He is the Almighty One. He created the Universe.
   He has anointed us with a calling for His Kingdom. He lives within us. "We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves." (2 Corinthians 4:7)

   Everything in and on the earth is proof of how great He is. We were created to carry out His work. We live to bring Him glory. He is our mission. He will give us strength to carry out His plans. "The Lord will give strength to His people; The Lord will bless His people with peace." (Psalms 29:11)
   If we ever feel too afraid to step out in faith, God will renew our courage. God will restore our strength. Through Him we are made strong, and through Him we can conquer all things. Through His grace we have been made into new creations. He has made us right before the Throne.
   Now we can take heart and go out into the battle field. He has overcome the world, so we have nothing to fear.
   "These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world." (John 16:33)

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Sunday, June 16, 2013


   How did I get here? I'm drowning. Everything is spinning out of control. I feel out of breath. I can't breathe. The only words I can gasp are, "Help me, Lord."
   I'm worn and sick of living this way. I can't keep this up. I can't pretend everything is okay. I will not do this anymore. I'm not able to fight this alone. I need, You, Lord. Come and rescue me. You're my Savior, and I know You're my only hope.
   You've assured me time and time again, that You'll never leave me. "Do not hide Your face from me; Do not turn Your servant away in anger; You have been my help; Do not leave me nor forsake me, O God my salvation." (Psalms 27:9)
   All this time I've been trying to do this myself. But today, Lord, I give this to You. I know You can handle it much better than I can. I shouldn't try to grip my life with white knuckles anymore. I should not try to control every tiny aspect. I shouldn't fear.

   I come before You broken. I've put up an effort for far too long. I need peace, God. Send me Your peace. "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)
   Please hold me in Your arms. I know everything will be just fine when I'm with You. Nothing can harm me when You're leading the way. Take control of my mind. Flood my thoughts and drench my soul with Your grace, O God. I'm desperate for You.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Wake Me Up

   I've been senseless for far too long. I've been needing a revelation. I need a breakthrough. I need to break through the chains. But I can't do it myself. I need You, God. I am weak, but You, God, You are strong. Help me wake up.
   Wake me up from my old days. Break away my sinful ways. Hold me in Your love, and tell me it's going to be okay. I'm going to make it, because nothing can take away the promises You've given. If there's one thing I'm sure of, it's where I'm going. Where I'll stand at the end of my days, is worth the long walk.
   Sometimes You give me a preview to motivate me. Almost as if You're saying, "Don't give up. We can get through this together. Just hold My hand, and everything will be alright." Your voice is soft and comforting. You give me hope for the days to come.
   "For I know the thoughts that I think towards you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not evil, to give you a future and a hope." (Jeremiah 29:11)

   I have faith that You will never let me go, Lord. I know You can wake me up from this blur of ailments. I know You are willing to take my burdens. Take my fear, God. I trust in You.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

This Struggle

   Sometimes I think, "Will this battle ever end?" Everyday seems to get harder. I know the truth. The truth is I don't have to put up a fight. I already have victory in Jesus Christ, but it's easy to get caught up in the mess of things and start to feel hopeless.
   Everyday I struggle to keep faith. I understand your pain, and so does Jesus. "The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." (Psalms 34:18)
   Let us not forget that Jesus was fully human, so He experienced everything that we experience. "Because he himself suffered when he was tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted." (Hebrews 2:18)
   Being tempted varies from one to another. The enemy knows where we struggle, so that is where he attacks us. He attacks when we are weak.
   The enemy doesn't use the same tactics on everyone. If that were the case, it would be easy to resist him. But, it's not. The enemy tailors his lies to fit our weaknesses. Not so simple to resist.
   Here's the good part. We are small and feeble, but God is strong and powerful! Therefore, we can't defeat the enemy ourselves, God does all the work! We can't overcome the lies on our own. It is through Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior, that we receive our strength and are victorious.

   "No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." (1 Corinthians 10:13)

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Monday, June 10, 2013

Rest in His Presence

   Sometimes my body tries to tell me that I'm expecting too much of it. Or maybe, that's God telling me I need to take a moment and unwind. He's telling me I need to let go and lay with Him. "I will both lie down in peace, and sleep; For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety." (Psalms 4:8)
   I, just like many other human beings, try very hard to power through weakness. Because none of us are perfect by any means, we often work too hard and don't provide our bodies with proper recovery time. God, on the other hand, is perfect, and He never becomes exhausted. So, when we come to Him when we feel torn down, He is very quick to relieve us.
   "My flesh and my heart may fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." (Psalms 73:26)
   When we ignore the warning signs, things can get much, much worse. It's important to stay in tune with God, because He is for us and not against us. He only wants what is good for us. "And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose." (Romans 8:28)

   God will always be there when you're feeling worn. He desires you to come to Him. Listen closely for His gentle voice. He cares for us, and His presence is refreshing. His presence restores us. "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Saturday, June 8, 2013

People Are Hurtful

   People. People are hurtful and, well, human. Humans are known for being imperfect, so it only seems logical that humans would screw up and hurt others' feelings. Not that this makes our sins okay. Not by any means! But, Jesus did set us free from all impurities and condemnation.
   Now, often times people do things without thinking first. Yes, it hurts, a whole lot. Whenever I'm grumbling about how lonely I am, Jesus steps in and offers up His shoulder. He wants us to always turn to Him when we're upset. He will be our best friend, even when all other human friends have abandoned.
   Don't be disheartened! Be joyful in knowing that you have a friend that will truly never leave. Jesus loves us so much, that He died a gruesome death so that we could spend eternity with Him. How's that for loyalty!
   Humans will lie and turn their backs on us, but Jesus wont! He speaks truth and He is for us. "Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you." (Deuteronomy 31:6)
   Instead of being angry about what others have done to hurt you, let's all be joyful over what the Lord has given to us. Jesus is our constant companion and He will never leave us. Be at peace with this revelation, today. He is omnipresent.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Freedom From Fear

   Fear. Fear has always been a burden in my life. I don't understand why I've let it control me for so long. Fear is why I almost died. Fear is the polar opposite of freedom. Why do I choose the filthy lies over redemption? Because I'm afraid.
   Fear is the enemy's way of stealing our joy. He doesn't want us to live in freedom. He wants us to be miserable. He enjoys it when we are hurting. Whenever we grieve he attacks twice as hard. He desperately searches for ways to get us discouraged. If you think what he is saying to you is true, think again, because the enemy is nothing but a liar. "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." (John 10:10)
   Satan's goals are that of destruction and misery, but God desires for us to be free and have joy. Now, I don't know about you, but I'd rather listen to what Jesus has to say and live in peace and faithfulness than have to constantly be tyrannized by someone who wants me dead. Jesus is for us, not against us. You can trust in Him. "Who executes justice for the oppressed, Who gives food to the hungry. The Lord gives freedom to the prisoners." (Psalms 146:7)
   If you've been feeling as if you're a prisoner like I have, it's time we come to Jesus. It's time we give Him our fears. He will gladly take them off of our shoulders. You see, when we walk around this earth constantly being crushed by burdens, God's heart aches. It makes Him sad to see our bondages. Come to Him. Lets be set free."Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)

   -The Introverted Evangelist