Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Forever in Our Hearts

   Dear God, I'm not mad at You. I'm just sad. Twelve years doesn't seem like enough, but I understand it's Your turn to hold him. I'll miss him. I'll miss all the fun times we had with him. I'll miss his big brown eyes and fluffy face. I know he loves us, and we sure love him. I know there's a place for him up there, and he'll get lots of ear scratchies.
   I know he'll be able to run free up there. His old frail body will be new. He'll be with the other souls I miss. But most importantly, he wont be hurting anymore. I just need to know, that he knows how much I'm going to miss him. I need him to really understand how much I love him. Without him there is a hole in my heart. He's irreplaceable and unforgettable.
   I remember when he'd chase us around the pool for hours on end. I remember snuggling up to him in my tent. I remember that every year I would buy him a little sweater for Christmas. He'd tear open the wrapping paper to reveal the most handsome sweater, perfect for a handsome boy.
   I remember giving him treats and having him gently take them from my hand. I remember his energy bursts when he'd run around the house like mad. He was so full of life.
   But now, it's time for him to be with you. New adventures. New life. I'm not mad at You, God. I know it's what is best. As long as he isn't in pain, You can take him now. I will miss him. We'll miss you Guinness...

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Friday, May 24, 2013

Safe Haven

   Home is where you are safe. Home is cozy and warm and gentle. Home is where you are free to be yourself. Where you are never rejected or denied companionship. Jesus is Home.
   Whenever I look to Jesus, and really focus in on His glory, I am reminded just how much He loves me. Jesus never abandons me or is hostile. Jesus is kind and loving. He loves us all more than we could ever imagine. Some of us cannot grasp the fact that we are loved, because some of us have never truly received love from other people. But, let me assure you: God doesn't love the way people love. God is Love. We love because He first loved us.
   1 John 4:19 says, "We love each other because he loved us first." You see, no matter how bad you think you are, God still loves you beyond comprehension. Once you understand that He will never stop loving us, you're whole perspective will change. You'll start to realize who you are. You are a child of God. We were created in His image. We are commissioned to unite His people, and to bring as many people home to heaven with us as possible.
   Home is where you go at the end of the day, when you're tired and wanting sleep. Jesus gives us rest. "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gently and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.'" (Matthew 11:28-30)
   When we come into the presence of the Lord, we are rejuvenated. He restores our strength and gives us hope. He replenishes us and satisfies our thirty souls. Relaxing in His presence gives us peace. Come and receive the peace unlike anything else.
   "Peace I leave with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid." (John 14:27)
   Now, go into the world and be certain. The Lord your God is with you always and He gives His peace abundantly. Never fear, because He will never leave us.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Jesus Gives Hope

   God is able. There is absolutely nothing He can't do. He is almighty and powerful. He is full of wonder and glory. I am in awe of You, Lord.
   When every hope seems to be lost, God steps in and saves. He never leaves us. It says in Hebrews 13:5, "For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'" We are never forgotten or left behind by God. Even when everyone else has turned away form you, Jesus stays right next to you. He is holding your hand, keeping you safe. He sustains us all the way.
   Once, I felt so abandoned. I felt like everybody I love had left me. I felt trapped and alone. But, it was during these interminably long two and a half weeks that I felt the presence of God. Every night I'd sit on that uncomfortable bed and read His Word. His Word is what gave me hope for the rough days to come. Having people watch my every move gave me an advantage to be an example. Maybe I could show others how Jesus comforted me. We're all suffering the same, so why not share the hope and faith I have in Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior.
   This past year, I've come closer to Jesus than ever. I've felt the cold grasp of death try to pull me in. I've heard the Lord's gentle whisper. I've been saved from the darkness. Now, looking back, I can see the enemy frustrated and enraged. The enemy is furious because I "just wouldn't die". The enemy has tried nearly everything to destroy me. He wouldn't give up, and he certainly won't stop now. I know that he'll persistently try to discourage me, but I have Jesus.
   When I turn my eyes to the Lord I can't be tangled up in the worries of today. I need to realize that He's taken care of everything. Every time the enemy tries to frighten me, the best thing I can do is give it to God. Give your troubles to God, and you will feel so free.
   "But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31)

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Monday, May 13, 2013

A Haiku Just For You

   But first, a verse I emailed to myself from my bible app at 2AM this morning. Yes, I really did send this verse to myself at two in the morning. I'm not exactly sure how, but I did.
   "My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God?" (Psalms 42:2)
   I actually sent myself two verses, the other being Hebrews 12:1, "Therefore we also, since we are surround by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us," But that's beside the point.
   Now for the haiku I had promised. It may be a little silly, but I really feel like this haiku wasn't just intended for me. I think the Lord wanted me to share this with all of you. So here it is:

I have been made new,
What satan says is not true,
Jesus, I love You!

   Short, but meaningful and so very true! Everything the enemy says is a big lie. It is written in John 10:10, "The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly."
   Now go and live. Live abundantly and freely. You have been released from the bondages of sin. Sin has zero hold on you! The enemy has no authority whatsoever! Tell him that. Put the enemy in his place. Tell him who you are. You are a child of God. You are righteousness. There is a place for you in heaven, and he can't take that away from you. He knows that, and it infuriates him. He so desperately wants to discourage you and make you miserable. Don't give him that satisfaction. Declare your freedom in Jesus Christ!
   "For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him." (2 Corinthians 5:21)

   -The Poetic Evangelist

Friday, May 10, 2013

My Everything

   Lord, You are my everything. You are my hope and strength. You are my morning and my night. You are the Healer of my hurt. You are the Savior of my life. You have made me new. You have given me joy and purpose.
   I am constantly in awe of you, God. You're beautiful. You're more than I can even imagine. You are the Creator of the universe. You are the wellspring of life and peace. There is nothing you cannot do. Your power is made perfect in our weaknesses. I have plenty of weakness, but I am glad, because through them others will see You, Lord.
   "And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will boast my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me." (2 Corinthians 12:9)
   I pray Your power rest upon me, God. I want others to see what You do. Come in me. I want to be known for knowing and loving You. You are my Teacher, so teach me to be more like You. Help me to love the way You love.
   I will not be silent about Your wondrous ways. There is no other way to explain how I was saved, but through You, Jesus. You took my broken life and raised me up. Thank You for rescuing me. I will praise You forevermore. I will testify to Your glories. You reign, Lord, and all will soon see.
   "Therefore God also has highly exalted Him and given Him the name which is above every name, that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in Heaven, and of those on earth, and of those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father." (Philippians 2:9-10)
   You are Father to the fatherless, Peace to the restless, and Hope to the hopeless. For You, God, are the One true living King of all kings. Let Your glory shine before all men, so that they will come to know You. You are the Great I Am. Nothing else maters, but You, Lord. I will live for You, and only You. Help me to keep my focus on You, because when my focus is on You, nothing can make me anxious. I know You are my Provider, and You won't let harm come to me. I put my faith in You, God.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Set Free Forever

   Fear is just a lie. Every worry present in my wandering mind is just a clever little tactic. The enemy is trying to destroy me. Every time I doubt God's glorious abilities, he is thrilled and laughs at me. I don't want the enemy to feel like he has any authority over me. Because he doesn't. No, he has no power over me whatsoever. No matter how many times he tries to convince me otherwise. It is not true. The enemy was defeated hundreds and hundreds of years ago when my savior died on the cross. Nice try, but not today!
   I'm so sick of him mocking me and dictating my days. This is my life the Lord gave to me. This life is a gift. I refuse to live in misery because of him. I refuse to give in to the temptations. I refuse to be bullied by the enemy. I am not a victim! I am victorious!
   "Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage." (Galations 5:1)
   It is written: I am free. I am not a slave to sin. I have been forgiven. I have been made new. Nothing that the enemy says is true. He is nothing but a liar. The enemy's goal is only to discourage me, destroy me, and kill me. Not going to happen. I am a child of the One true living King. If there's anything the enemy wants to do to me, he's going to have to speak with my Father first. Take that devil!
   I'm tired of living in bondage. I want to live the life God intended me to live. Freely. Life is a beautiful, beautiful gift. I want to cherish the life the Lord gave to me. I want to use it to tell everyone about how miraculous my Father in Heaven is. Freedom is right in front of me, and all I must do to achieve it is reach out to the Father. He's ready to take away my fears and worries. He's holding my hand every step of the way. The road home may seem long and dreadful, but in Christ it can be lovely.
   From this day on, I will choose to take every concern to Jesus. After all, I will be with Him for eternity. I love my sweet Jesus. Better yet, He loves us all even more than we could possibly imagine.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Not So Lonely

   I'm constantly griping about how I never get to be with my friends. It's an awful habit. Why be so negative when there's so, so much for which to be thankful? I often forget how blessed I am when I'm so busy groaning about how terrible my life is. But, in the midst of my bellyaching, today, the Lord reminded me that I have the perfect companion. Jesus.
   Whenever I feel lonely and unwanted, He reminds me of how Jesus died for me. Jesus died so that He could have a personal relationship with each and every single one of us. Don't forget that. Jesus is our best Friend, our Teacher, Healer, Savior, and Lord. He is always with us.
   No matter how many people have left you, Jesus will never leave. He is constantly by our side. It is written right in Hebrews 13:5, "For He Himself has said, 'I will never leave you nor forsake you.'"
   Jesus is all we need. He is more than enough. Whatever it is we may be going through, He is sufficient. Our God loves us, because He is Love. There is absolutely nothing that we could ever do to make God stop loving us. Wow. Talk about a perfect Friend. Jesus is the friend that will never leave.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Who Am I?

   Who am I? What makes me different from everybody else? How can I make a difference in this fallen world? How can I make Jesus known? What is my purpose? Why am I here?
   I have a job. I have a purpose. I am the only one that can carry out God's plan for me. He chose me specifically to do something huge. I will not let the enemy discourage me, and lead me into darkness. I will not hide my face, nor will I be ashamed of who I am in Christ Jesus. I have been made new and the old is long gone.
   There was once a time in my life, when I was so dismal and gloomy. I only wore grey clothes, and my favorite kind of days were those of the dreary sort. I detest to think of how much of a negative impact I may have had on others. I really never wish to return to my previous ways.
   Instead, I can rejoice in knowing I am new again! I am alive and well! I have been assigned a great destiny. God has given me a job. I'm to tell others the joy of living in Christ, the giver of abundant life. God wants us to have joy and peace and to live our lives to the full.
   A smile I will keep on my face. I will illuminate His glory. I pray the Lord's love and freedom be seen inside of me, so that the world might join me in heaven for eternity. I will not be conformed by this world, but instead be a light in the dark. My mission is to plant as many seeds in the hearts in this world as I can before my time is up. I want to take with me to heaven as many souls as I can. I want more than anything to see others change like I did. To see the dark clouds move out and reveal light, glorious, glorious light! To see a bright and cheerful spirit, rejoicing in the abundance that is the Lord, Jesus Christ.
   "This was the Lord's doing; It is marvelous in our eyes. This is the day the Lord has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it." (Psalm 118:23-24)
   Who am I? I am a child of God. I am new. Fear and shame have no hold over me anymore. I am blessed. I am loved. I am important. I am no longer a hostage. I am going to live my life the way God intended me to live: set free.

   -The Introverted Evangelist