Showing posts from October, 2013

Separation Anxiety

Well over a year ago, I experienced a very traumatic event that forever changed me. It not only changed the way I live my everyday life, but it also affected my feelings towards being alone. That dreadful Friday evening I was abandoned, or so I though. Turns out I had unlocked a treasury of marvelous Presence. The Lord was closer than ever.

   I would've never believed that such an awful time in my life could've turned into something so beautiful. But, God likes to make beauty out of ashes, doesn't He? Ah, He never ceases to surprise me in the most delightful ways.

   However, that experience did leave it's own share of scars. I now face a fear of being alone, but I know I'm not ever really alone. I know that the Lord is always by my side. I know from personal experience that even when the going gets tough, and I feel abandoned or forgotten, my Father holds me close.

   I've discovered the most satisfying Well of Truths. I have unleashed a brand new perspective…

Shelter in the Storm Song

I trust in You, Father.  I know that I am safe in You.  I believe that You are greater than the storms that rage.  Though the wind blows and rainfalls extravagantly, the Lord is my shelter.
   Thunder crashes all around, and bolts of light still abound.  But I will not fear, for the Lord my Shepherd is always near.  My heart is set on trusting in You, and I know that You will see me through.  I will always have this delight, because I am safe throughout the night.
   The Lord is loving, caring and pure. His protection is for sure.  Let Him hold you safe and sound, and feel His grace all around.  Whisper of His gentle voice allow me to still rejoice.  Father, I know I'm secured right here.

   -The Introverted Evangelist

Whenever I Stumble

When Your light shines upon my face, I can feel the warmth of Your love. The animals sing songs of praise to their mighty Creator. The water rushing seems to cry tears of joyfulness. Here I am Lord, Your little lamb. I am ready to be swept away by Your abounding, compassionate, love.
   The world around me is full of grief, but in You I find my shelter. In You, God, I am hidden. I will bury myself inside of You. I will cling to my Father's hand, and in Him I hear His thoughts towards me. The enemies snarl and grasp for me, but my Lord is my protection.
   I never want to leave. I never want to ever depart again. The life within my soul shines because my God has saved me. He renewed my hope, and established my ways. He tells me what is good and pure and trustworthy.
   "This is what the Lord says- your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel: 'I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.'" (Isaiah 48:17)
   He tea…

This Renewed Understanding

My eyes are filled, they're filled with tears of joy and gratitude. This love I find in the Father is so pure. It's never ending and never failing. It hasn't given up on me, even though the road has been rough and often painful. Through all of the hurt, I know I can press into my Savior.

   With all my might I cry out and plead for a hand to grasp, only to find I'm already being held in His arms. Love so deep it erodes the fears. Intimacy so pure it changes my heart's desires. Now all I want it to be with my God.

   Renewed vision of who You are, Father, gives me more reasons to fully trust in You than I could ever count. I know why there is an awful roadblock. It is because my enemy wants to keep me from You, Father. He wants to stop me from praising You and living for You.

   The very thought of being kept from You tears me up and breaks my heart. I never want anything else but Your presence filling my being. Please don't ever let this longing leave. Don'…

Endless Wonder

I am constantly in awe of God. Sometimes I sound like a broken record going on and on about how much I cherish the relationship I have with Him, but I don't mind one bit. The way I see it, as long as my heart is beating, it's beating for Christ.
   Everyday comes as a mystery to us, but not to the Lord. He will provide for us. I know so much more than I did about who He is, but there is still a vast amount of knowledge yet to be discovered. Each day holds the opportunity to get to know Him more and more.
   The future is utterly unknown, but my God is fully faithful. Fear is frivolous, and trust is vital. Each step we take in faith is accompanied by a strong, loving Lord. It may seem like I've written all of these things before, but it has come to my attention that there is a truly endless treasure chest of wonders found in He who is the one and only YHWH.
   It's hard to find the right words sometimes, because in His presence I'm often speechless. Struck with awe …

The Morning Song

He came to set us free. He came so that the proper penalty of sin would be removed from us. He saved us from death. He paid our ransom. He gave us life. Glory and honor to the Lamb of God! Shout out His goodness!
   In the morning I arise and turn my head up toward the skies. My heart is replenished with hope at once. The Father looks at me and He smiles. Shortly after my eyes are opened, I lavish my admiration upon the Shepherd. He delights in me and I rejoice in His peaceful Presence.
   A cool autumn breeze rushes through the bright golden leaves. All of the earth seems to declare His marvelous works. Thank You, Father. You are everywhere. I only want to breathe You in continually. I never want to leave Your presence. I am energized and refreshed when I'm with You. My everything, Lord, is You.
   You've covered me with Your grace. You've cleansed me from all of my unrighteous ways. My heart sings for You, and my soul longs for You. You are so pure, so good, and so great

Zoe Glow - Life Within

"The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly." (John 10:10)
   Doesn't reading this excite you? Doesn't it just open up your eyes? Can't you just feel the sheet being lifted from your face? The devil just wants to take us down, but the Lord gives us life.
   The day you were saved, a powerful source of life was planted inside of you. This life has guaranteed you a permanent home in Heaven, and eternal life with Christ Jesus our Lord. The true source of abundant and everlasting life and joy is radiating within us all. The ultimate life of God is established in each and every one of His children.
   This life called zoe, is the life that is to come. It's the spiritual life of deliverance from what our sin would have brought upon us. If not for Jesus's sacrifice, we would've been doomed to eternal misery and death. But praise the Lord that is not the …

Ἀβιά Father

My heart is filled with delight when I'm with You. I am overwhelmed with Your grace, God. You are my everything, and all that I am belongs to You, Father.

Father. Anything I have on this earth could be destroyed, but I will never be alone. I will always have a home in Christ my Lord. Yahweh is my Home. Yahweh is my Lord. Yahweh is my heart's desire. Yahweh is my Father. Ἀβιά.

I found this gem in my Hebrew-Greek study bible. Abia: my father is Yahweh. No matter what, Yahweh is my father. No matter how far, I'm home in Him. Yahweh loves me. Yahweh invites me into His arms. I'm family, I'm home.
   Maybe you need to know that you are not forgotten. You're not abandoned. Despite whatever the world tells you, Yahweh is here. "Arise, shine, for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord rises upon you." (Isaiah 60:1)
   If you've never been able to call people "family", you need to know that God calls you His child. Father, Abia. "A fa…

Yôḥānān - Yahweh is Gracious

Sometimes when it's storming, we feel closest to God. Sometimes when we're hurting, His grace is poured out on us even more freely than we imagine. Come Yahweh, come fill us with Your peace. Peace has come down upon us.

   Once we think we've experienced His most gracious Presence, He surprises us with more love and more mercy. Yôḥānān - Yahweh is gracious. Hebrew: יוֹחָנָן
   In the prison of fear, there in my worry-cage, I turn my head towards my Father in Heaven. His smile gives me hope. I feel a renewed courage blooming within me. Father, You make all things new.
   You took me, a dedicated worrier, and transformed me. Now I am a passionate daughter of the King. I run my faith race with intense focus on the finish line. The prize to obtain is spending my eternity with You, my heart's ultimate desire.

   You are beautiful and pure, Lord. Your name is holy. Your name is our every breath. YHWH. I want to breathe in Your presence. In with Your peace, out with Your love.…

Knowing His Love and Trusting It

"For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain." (Philippians 1:21) I'd not lived before I lived for Him and through Him. All of me belongs to the Lord. It's only acceptable to completely abandon my fears and trust
   Every moment spent with Him is cherished and treasured not only by the sheep, but also by the Shepherd Himself. He delights in His sheep. "the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love." (Psalms 147:11)
   When we put our faith in Him, the Loving Shepherd, He takes pleasure in us. It overjoys the Lord when we exhibit our trust in Him. It doesn't exasperate God to comfort us continually. We are His! He loves us dearly!
   "For if we live, we live to the Lord; and if we die, we die to the Lord. Therefore, whether we live or die, we are the Lord's." (Romans 14:8)
   Because we are the Lord's sheep, and He is a good, pure, loving Shepherd, should we not thrust out fear and doubt to live…


These words are like fiery arrows to my heart. The roaring is deafening, for it's become a constant clamor in the back of my head, torturing me continually. My bones crack beneath the heavy load of all these burdens. The luggage of my hurt is hindering my joyfulness. Only the enemy steals joy.
   I don't want to listen. It pains me to listen to him lie to me all day. I miss being so wrapped in God's gracious whispers that nothing could derail my peace in His promises. I loathe what I'm swaddled in right now - fleshly distractions.
   Whatever happened to the one that only longed for her heavenly Father's hand underneath her stumbling feet? Where did the sheep with a craving to be under His wing go? I want to be a sheep again. I don't want to think I can handle things on my own, because I can't. I can't defeat the devil with my own words, and I certainly can't say no to the prideful ways myself. These sorts of battles require divine intervention.

The Lessons Learned

It was a long, hard day. I'd cried out every last tear, so much so that I felt I couldn't cry anymore, but I did. My heart was shattered. I'd lost everything, or so I thought. As the night went on things seemed to get worse. Cold and lonely, I felt something. Something comforting and hopeful, I felt the Lord. He was with me in the middle of my misery. I was not alone after all.
   Day after day I was paralyzed with fear, but each night brought a renewed courage to make it through. I was desperate for peace, and in my desperation came the Lord's provision. He is so faithful. He was and He constantly still is.
   The meaning. The meaning of all my tears and suffering I now understand, it's because I was so far, but now I'm in His own hand. I wouldn't change the pain for anything. What happened in that place was far more than what it seemed at the time. A precious bond was formed with the Lord. A brand new sense of belonging placed into my heart.
   The passio…